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Songs of Love: Addictive Love- Rock Bottom

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I have listened to Hailee Steinfeld but have not seen this one until now. This song is called Rock Bottom and it features DNCE. This song seems to be about a continuous Love Hate Make up Break up kind of relationship that no matter how many times they fight and end their relationship they always come back to each other in the end.

Please click the link for the song and music video:https://youtu.be/liwCttfeJ7E

This song has a good beat and is a complicated but real emotion song. Makes you think.

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First Holiday!!!

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I mentioned in one of my other posts that I would be going on holiday. What I didn’t mention that this would be my first holiday without my family. Growing up I had a group of friends and when we had some savings aside and felt old enough we decided to plan to go away together but since there was so many of us it was difficult to even plan anything as everyone wanted something different and we just couldn’t agree so ended up doing nothing. Getting into relationships especially my long term one I expected to go away at some point together but he just never seemed interested and kept telling me to do things with other people. My family had their own plans with relationships, my siblings went with their friends or other halves and my parents did a random 4-5 days here and there over the year. Due to all the above I have not been away for bout 8years and I mean a flight holiday not the coach and train days trips and weekends I randomly do.

Since me and my Sweet One have been together a  few months now we haven’t really properly had time alone away from people at work or families at home and since we met during the winter time we never had a chance to really go many places but since the weather is heating up we have decided to book our first holiday together. Since neither of us have gone away in a relationship we decided to do no longer then a week just in case. I really doubt we will have any problems being together all day everyday but its a precaution and even though we are both looking forward to it we want to make sure we plan things in such away that we have no problems and can freely enjoy our time together.

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Return of the Ex- The Long Haired One

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I have not really had much experience with having much to do with an ex after the relationship is over except for one which was my Special Someone who I have my Furry Princess with. Going through some stuff and changing rooms I found something that did not belong to me. It was given to me as a reminder of the Long Haired when we did not know when we would see each other again as we were going through a long distance relationship. He gave me something that his mother had made for him and he had been wearing almost everyday and since it wasn’t just a regular gift I did not feel right in keeping it and felt I should return it.

Since the break up and my new relationship I have no contact with him and so sent it to the last address I had for him, his parents house thinking even if he wasn’t going to still be there he could still receive it. Just to be sure that he knew there was something I left him a short message. I did not want to continue talking to him due to what happened and felt it was best we go separate ways so I just kept it simple letting him know something was in the post on its way to him and wished him well. I got a message of thanks and that he had some stuff he never sent me (xmas gifts)and then got told to leave him alone. I told him I was just returning his belongings which I didn’t feel right in keeping and that he did not need to worry bout sending me anything if he didn’t want anything to do with me as he did not want to be friends he wanted to revisit what we had before.

I of course had moved on as his health is important and I had already been in a similar situation with my Special Someone and did not want to be in that place again. Given the fact I was closing in on the age of thirty and wanted to eventually have a family of my own I have to prioritise and waiting for someone with mental health problems to improve just wouldn’t move my life forward no matter how heart breaking it is. Mental health isn’t something that can get fixed easily or quickly or even at all and sometimes the stress of having a relationship just doesn’t help and so in my mind it was already set that friendship was all we would have and nothing more but since he had no interest in that and wanted to pursue a relationship I don’t think I will be hearing from him.

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Relationships you want: Instructor Dojo and Iku Kasahara

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I started reading my first ever manga series and its called Library Wars and I enjoyed reading bout the main two characters.

What they do for each other

Dojo helps Kasahara by abusing his position to stop her favourite book from being confiscated by the MBC

Kasahara saves Dojo inspite of his orders when he gets shot

Dojo repeatedly comes to Kasaharas rescue

Kasahara takes Dojo to get some camomile tea as hehas not had it before

Dojo tries to keep Kasahara’s parents from finding out what her job is

 

What their relationship includes

Fights

Arguments

“Dream Prince”

Love

Overall this relationship shows

Love appears in the most random places

It is possible to forgot the face pf someone you really like and look up to

it is possible to turn Hate to Love

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The Thoughts of Disappointments

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I decided to share something else today and its more to do with my feelings of right now. I have explained in past posts about a new development in my Love life which is the Sweet One (although lately I’ve been thinking of him as the Sweet but Crazy One :0P) and how this relationship is slightly different to the others I’ve had. In this relationship my Sweet One is the one experiencing the new shiny stuff of relationships and I can see his eyes wide like a magpies at this rate and I just have these odd feelings I will fail as a girlfriend and a future life partner. I know that he will always be understanding to my craziness but it does not mean that my feelings that I could be a great disappointment to him ,of what Love and relationships are will disappear and it horrifies me that I could be the cause of his faith and trust as well as belief being damaged. In past relationships I have always made jokes about how I am “The Best Girlfriend Ever!” knowing full well I could never say it and mean it or even think it could be remotely true as the confidence in myself is lacking and it makes me wonder how I can be in a relationship at all.

Expectations and disappointments have a tendency to end up hand in hand sometimes and it jus makes you not want to get too hopeful or excited of what the future holds and in my case its this relationship. I really like the Sweet One and I know he could be good to me but I just cant bring my to expect too much from him and I know there must be expectations on his side but he will never say and I feel I should really know what they are so as not to be too much of a disappointment to him. I want to be a good girlfriend and hopefully a great future life partner where I can fill his life with happiness but there’s this little feeling in the back of my head that just feels I will never achieve that.  

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Songs of Love: Real Love- Say Love

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I cant believe I only just found this song but it just seems to be something I want to replay over and over lately.

This song is called “Say Love” by JoJo Levesque or JoJo as she is more commonly known. This is part of the Tringle album III

Please click the link to listen to the song and watch the music video:https://youtu.be/bwrJWV3MVMU

This song is very emotional and JoJo voice is amazing singing it as her voice really captures the feelings.  This song will make you feel the vulnerability of putting yourself out there in a relationship and have the same returned to you such as the word “Love”. Wanting to hear your significant other say the word back to you and wanting to know you are in the same place. I know it isn’t particularly a happy song that everyone would enjoy but the fact that she can express these emotions in such an incredible way just makes you appreciate it all the more.

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Smarter Other Half

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This is something that has happened a couple of times and I do feel pretty dumb literally pretty dumb when a guy I have been in a relationship with or dated for a little while is so much smarter then I am. I wouldn’t say I’m stupid but there have been times when big words have been used or certain interests or discussions have come up and I haven’t got a clue. Very embarrassing.

Thinking back to when I was younger I was one of those people who looked liked they could be really brainy but deep down wasn’t very academic so who it was always awkward when people would want help. There were times when I knew what was going on and could offer my help but other times I just had no idea bout anything, As I got older I tried to get more interests and meet more people and have more meaningful conversations but there was always someone who had that much more knowledge then me that was enough for me to feel intimidated.

When it comes to dating someone you don’t want to be made stupid in anyway you want to be able to show something of yourself for your own self respect and self worth but there are times when you may not feel like that when it feels like someone is showing you up. With the Long Haired One he was really smart and had knowledge about lots of different things and during our conversations I found myself having to look up what he meant to make sense of things but I did end up telling him the truth bout how I felt, He was quite understanding and told me not to feel inadequate in comparison to him and that it did not effect our relationship. 

Something I guess I could say is that you should never feel ashamed that you aren’t smart enough, as everyone has different wisdom and interests in life and so you should never compare yourself to your other half.  Your other half could seem smart in one way but may lack knowledge in something that you know all about. Always know that you are a unique and wise in your own way and your other half will Love you just as you are and will consider themselves lucky to have you.   

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