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Dates with the Greek One

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After thinking that maybe the Ex Scientist and I would be better off as friends I decided to plan my meet with the Greek one as I did say that I would let him know what was going on as I did not want to date multiple people at once.

After having a short discussion and realising we weren’t too sure of what to do but it was nice and sunny we decided a visit to the park was in order we and ended up in Green Park. It was really nice sunny day so we grabbed some food and found a spot to sit and eat. We talked about a lot of  different things then decided on a bit of walking. We had an issue in finding the bathroom so got lost a bit in search of one and found that without change it is not possible to use one. After finally finding one we headed off to find another place to sit and got a drink. At this point I was genuinely confused about him. I liked him and we could hold a conversation but I just couldn’t see where things were with him and I do normally have an idea straight away, I did have a discussion with him and we decided maybe we need to meet up again and see how we feel. I agreed and decided on a park that he may not have been to which was closer to where I lived. Again pretty good day for walking so ended up getting lost but not quite wandering around all the weird little paths. It was a good day regardless and we even picked up some ice cream 😀 but  I could well and truly confirm that as nice as this guy is I cant like him any more then I do and think a friendship is more in order. 

Before I had actually met the Greek one on a second date I did have someone message me and I think I am going to call him the Long Haired One….

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Updates and My Date with the Ex Scientist

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Well I mentioned I’m up and running again but I didn’t say much about the people I had been meeting with. The order of this is in no order at all.

First up are the ones who came and went. The Red Head and the Long Haired Pony. I had randomly spoken very briefly with the Red Head and he had asked to meet and I had said on a few occasions that randomly asking me on the day may not work well. I told him to plan things or to at least swap numbers first, I did not hear from him but then again he may show up again. The Long Haired Pony I had a really fun conversation with throughout the day and we had started talking on skype but after talking all day I didn’t hear from him after strange enough.

The next ones are the ones who message randomly here and there. The Healthy Eating Man, One Year Younger and Italian Name are the ones who seem like I could have really fun conversations with. Its mostly silliness with random questions here and there about what we do and like. These come and go randomly messaging me for bit and then disappearing for a few days. I’m not entirely sure of how I’m meant to receive that.

The Ex Scientist is one I did message quite often over a couple of days. Coming up to a week we decided to plan to meet up. I had no idea of where to go but suggested the park near me seeing as he was local and had not been.

On the day of our date something really crappy happened and forced me to have to leave and arrive late at our meeting spot(!!!- not good)The alarm in the house went off and between my mum and me there would only be my gran at home as we were both getting ready to leave at the same time. We could not shut of the alarm and ended up phoning other members of the family to help get it switched off. Finally managing to switch it off I realise I only have ten minutes to get where I need to be and I’m still in my pyjamas. I rush to dress and rush out the door trying to send messages and ringing him hoping he will pick up. I then realise he has an issue with his phone which is why we were messaging over the internet so he will not be receiving my texts or my calls. I arrive late and sweaty and I can see no one around until soundly a head pops out from behind the wall and he looks slightly different to his picture as he was wearing glasses. I apologised for what happened and explained the situation. We started to head off towards the high street to pick up some sandwiches and then started to go towards the park. We had a conversation about little things along the way. We ended up at the entrance and he was really glad we had come here. We went in search  of a bench and sat to have our food. We did not move from that spot for quite some time. Just chatting away. After about 2hours he said he had somewhere to be and he had better leave. We headed back to the station and said our good byes.

I enjoyed speaking with the Ex Scientist and I had a nice day but something was definitely missing…

During this time I had also been talking to the Greek one who had wanted to meet but I had wanted to see this date through first before planning anything else.

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Activating my profile again

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Well I decided to try again with the site after the Climbing Man and I figured that even if it didn’t work out with this one maybe I will find someone else it could work with me. I noticed that after staying away during the time I was seeing how it goes with the Climbing man, coming back brought quite a few people to start messaging me, it was almost like refreshing the page. This is over the last couple of weeks I managed to start to talking to an Ex Scientist, Healthy Eating Man, The Greek one, One year younger man, Italian Name, the Red Head and Long Haired Pony.

I did think about the Climbing Man a small bit but tried to look at it in a different way. Whatever he was to me I’m glad we met and I enjoyed our time together and hopefully I can keep a good friendship going with him if not anything else. He may not be the one for me but he was a good one to start off with after my Special Someone.  I feel bit better on my quest for Love! ;0) I think I am more capable then I thought I was and I know I will get a better understanding of this dating stuff and the judgements and meets and all the guys I may meet and most likely pass too….     

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Why I wanted a boyfriend

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Looking back around 10years ago being a teenager I had wanted a boyfriend but not because everyone else had one or because I wanted to experience intimacy but because I was alone. Ok before you start thinking sad loner girl but it wasn’t exactly like that. I had my friends and my own little life going on but having my part time job and my friends all off at University I just wanted to have someone who would do anything to spend time with me and be there when I needed them. My own Special person who I’d become their whole world (maybe that is a slight exaggeration but you know it’s a nice thought to have as a teenager). 

Having a boyfriend meant that I would be able to have someone to talk about everything and anything to and they will still accept me, someone who would never ask me to change myself unless it was truly to help me become a better person not because they don’t like it and also to become a potential life partner.

Being in a relationship was more then just someone to be intimate with because I felt inexperienced and more then someone to buy me pretty things so I didn’t have to spend money, it was like the start of my dream of having my own family, Love and my own Special Someone.

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The Climbing Man Update

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The way I update this blog post is bit funny so for me this update is bit late but here it is.

With the Climbing Man I really want to take things slow but things seem to be moving in a pace a little bit quicker then planned even though not a lot is happening it feels like it is if that makes any sense. I have been on three dates now with this guy and I really like him and I have no idea why.

We missed two weeks after our 3rd date and some serious conversations came up. I feel that we are in a place of working out what we both want and where we are with each other. I know where I am and what I want but I feel he has many worries but it has been difficult to have proper conversations about it as he gets tired from work as there had been lots of problems and he just wanted some time alone. I also had a small trip away so we missed out on meeting once again. Things were ok in one way but when we tried to plan a meet again he was all set to meet me after he came from work but his ear problem from few weeks back was causing problems and he wasn’t sure if he should drive to see me without having the wind from the rolled down window blowing in his ear. This was the third cancel and I was really disappointed and sad. He felt bad but there wasn’t much to do bout it. A little while after that day when I was planning something for my holidays and figured we could do a day trip somewhere we ended up having another serious conversation ad sadly it was bad news and yes I cried :0(

The Climbing Man did like me and did enjoy speaking to me but he felt I felt more for him then he did for me. He wondered why he wasn’t as enthusiastic as I was to meet up. We lived far yes but he could drive and be with me in just over an hour if he really really wanted to but he didn’t feel that and wondered if maybe it was best to not date as I would get hurt. Inspite of his good intentions funnily enough I did get hurt, it did actually feel quite painful and I don’t even know why, he wasn’t my boyfriend he was slightly more then a friend but in reality who was he to me, what relationship and connection did I have to him to feel this way. Things got worse as he didn’t feel good either. He revealed he did care for me and there was never any intention to hurt me and that he was stupid and was rushing in with out thinking about what he wanted and he realised he doesn’t know what he wants and he felt that maybe something important was missing between us, the spark…..  

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